Thursday, 1 March 2012

Sounds of Silence

Sounds of silence

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1. Energy traps in the neck-throat region
2. The role of Udana Vayu
3. Study the pattern
4. Techniques to reclaim the Udana Vayu
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“I don’t understand how I get these rashes only around my throat. This has been extremely bothersome and embarrassing. How to get rid of it?” 

“There is constant persistent cough, can’t speak more than a sentence without being interrupted by the cough” 


How much of what we think and feel is actually communicated and how much is left unsaid, unexpressed or even unacknowledged to ourselves? With so many real and imagined barriers to self-expression, the neck and throat have become the seats for many illnesses and imbalances. Thus, the prana – specifically the Udana Vayu – gets trapped. 

When was the last time you felt a strong emotion of pain, anger, fear and held it not knowing how to get past it, not having the courage to face it, feared the consequences of expressing it to the person concerned? The next time you feel it, try to see how it is precipitating in the body, how it is playing itself out in your system. Anything from persistent cough to allergies to stiffness and pain, hormonal imbalances… 

The site of the symptom is a vital piece of information, are you listening?

The Udana Vayu that has its seat in the throat is the uplifting energy. To hold the head high in confidence and courage requires the Udana Vayu to be strong, we can then express ourselves with clarity and conviction. Yoga Sutra talks about mastery of the Udana Vayu in the 3rd chapter (Yoga Sutra III.39), indicating that it can confer lightness of body so that we can walk on water, quick sand and thorns and actually levitate! Well, if not levitate the least we would desire is clarity of thought and expression. Free of imagined consequences of our actions. 

Of course, it might not be prudent to always speak our mind. So there is constant conflict, what to say, how much to say and what not to say… The throat becomes the battlefield, trapping and depleting the Udana Vayu. Stooping shoulders, stiff neck, tightness in the chest with shallow upper-chest breathing - clearly the Udana is affected.

So whenever you experience a conflict in communication, observe the sensations in the throat. Most often these are well rehearsed plots, conditioned responses/reactions that are on auto-pilot. That is why the body has now taken over the job of indicating something is wrong – through physical symptoms and imbalances. 
Here’s what you can try: 
Study the pattern

Choose just one relationship in your life that is significant for you and observe next time what you are saying and not saying. Usually what is unconsciously (or consciously) withheld is some aspect of our feelings that we do not identify with our sense of self. For example, I may be feeling very angry and hurt by the way somebody is talking to me or treating me but I may not acknowledge or express it (even to myself) because I believe it is “not OK” to feel it. It is not what I would expect out of myself. The ego has created its own trap, and the prana is stuck! 

The next time this happens, observe your sensation in the body, specifically around your neck and throat.

Hold your attention there and just for yourself, acknowledge and accept your feeling, validate it for what it is. 

Observe the various ways and methods that you cover it up, deny, deflect or suppress it, these are often conditioned reactions or responses. 

Where is this coming from? 

Usually most of this comes from fear, when you get in touch with the seed of fear, enter it, breathe into it and slowly release it. 

It is certainly not easy as sometimes this whole process of acknowledging and staying with the seed of pain is intolerable. But having said that, the process of undoing the knots is itself quite simple and straightforward. 

Techniques to the rescue Your daily asana, pranayama, chanting practice can be great avenues for unlocking and releasing the Udana Vayu.

UjjayiMaking a gentle restriction in the throat that creates a soft hissing sound as you inhale and exhale. Even if you just worked with extending your breath, making it longer and longer, there is a natural restriction created at your throat that can then guide your mind to stay focused. Note: Ujjayi has to be soft and subtle, just for you to hear and be guided. 

Try breathing in from the front of the throat and breathing out through the back of your throat, touching deeper and subtler parts of the throat passage. 

When the sound is subtle, the control over the breath is better. 

It also means your mind has to be so quiet to listen to the breath, so naturally we come into the present moment, releasing ourselves from past and future. 

As we extend the inhalation and exhalation, we are able to work through the blocks in a very gentle manner and release the prana. 

Gentle neck movements – extension, flexion and axial twisting movements along with arm/body movements will allow for better opening and release. 

Sitali pranayama (inhaling through tongue curled up on the sides to form a tube, raising the head simultaneously and breathing out through nostrils lowering the head) is a beautiful technique that can help us release so much of tension in the throat and neck region. 

Jalamdhara Bandha – the chin lock position helps to lift the spine up, open up the chest for better breathing and also the restriction at the throat combined with ujjayi breathing in suitable postures and pranayama can intensify the process of burning through the blocks and releasing the prana. 

Chanting as a form of release is a wonderful idea. By this, we are able to transmute all that we have not been able to say/share into something sacred, powerful and liberating. 

This of course, is not the complete list of techniques but only an indication of direction. Even if we do not experience any apparent problems in the neck and throat, we could still benefit from seeing how to deal with conflicts arising from communication and clear it out through everyday practice so that we are not creating more traps for the prana. 

One of the meanings of the word yoga is “Yukti” - intelligent, creative, resourceful application. It is not so much the tool or technique but how and for what purpose we deploy it that matters. The above techniques, when used consciously and in an intelligent manner, can clear the bottlenecks in our daily life effortlessly. 

Just like the farmer clears the weeds and breaks the dam so that water can flow into the fields (Yoga Sutra 4.3), the technique simply opens up the knots and releases the prana that can then lift us up, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually! 

Don't let your throat tighten with fear.
Take sips of breath all day and night,
before death closes your mouth.
- Rumi

Wednesday, 1 February 2012

Reclaim your Prana


If you want the truth, step out of the mind. By learning to listen to the body and breath, find the true key to healing…

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1. A familiar story of life - challenges in healing.
2. Why am I experiencing this stuck-ness?
3. What has trapped my Prana?
4. How to reclaim the Prana?
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“For 20 years I have held this pain and anger! My health has deteriorated so much. I cannot and will not forgive them for what they have done to me…” I could sense her pain and anger. She blamed her husband and mother-in-law for all her miseries -arthritis, bronchitis, migraine, acidity and obesity. She was feeling quite depressed and hopeless, having tried many doctors and systems of medicine to no avail. She had now come to me hoping against hope.

A brief pause ensued and I gently nudged her to try and bring her mind to the present. “Bring your attention to your body, observe what is happening. Maybe the mind does not want to let go … Yes, it is very difficult to break away from painful memories. Allow your breath to gently detach your mind from everything else and come back to your body. What are you feeling in your body?” She replied, “A lot of pain in the ankles, my knees are burning, breath is disturbed, feeling a lot of constriction in the upper chest- now rising up my throat to my lower jaws, getting a headache…” Slowly she began connecting with each part, noticing and labeling each sensation for what it is.

I placed a cushion under her aching feet and asked her to gently breathe down into her ankles, chanting mentally with each breath as I chanted aloud. After a few minutes, she reported the pain in her ankles came down from 8 to 4 on a scale of10. The experience of pain relief fascinated her and her mind was immediately less agitated. 

A little taste of what yoga can offer for you, my dear friend!

Over two decades now, I have experienced the power of yoga as a tool for healing and spiritual growth. I am convinced that it has the power to address all the problems of human existence and offer solutions in some form or the other.

The challenge in yoga is staying on the path – we all agree that it is not easy. There are many distractions, old memories and habit patterns, non-conducive environments, health and relationship issues… There is always something that comes up and slackens our motivation, induces doubt, dissipates energy, blurs the memory and direction, making the path more arduous and the pace so slow that we feel stagnant or on a downward spiral!

Sraddha Virya Smrti Samadhiprajna Purvaka Itaresam YS 1.20

Sutra 1.20 talks about the strength of inner conviction, the will required to pursue the path (Sraddha), that gives energy and courage to deal with challenges (virya), refines the memory of the goal (memory) leading to higher levels of wisdom and clarity (samadhi prajna).

Sraddha taps and awakens the dormant and stuck prana (the vital energy) within the system and directs it. But sometimes, even though we have the conviction, it does not translate into appropriate action, the energy is lacking. This is when we experience slackening, weakness and dissipation.

Why am I experiencing this stuck-ness?

Just to offer a perspective, let us look at what creates and mediates change at all levels - within and without. We call this the life giving force – Prana – that is constantly regenerated. Every moment it expresses itself through the breath and all the functions and activities of the living being. Even a single thought cannot pop out of your mind without the will of the Prana. Every living moment, Prana flows through all the layers and levels of our existence, creating change, growth and evolution. We are being constantly re-created by this energy,

“I will not forgive”, “I feel so guilty”, “I strongly resent…” the stories we are stuck with, a complex web of memories, thought and emotional habit patterns constantly trap the vital Prana, making it unavailable for even basic bodily functions. It renders the mind dull and disturbed, compromising all its faculties like memory, creativity, clarity and focus. The source of stress-induced illnesses!

The healing process in yoga works on the premise of disengaging and releasing the Prana that is trapped in the body-mind complex. When the blocks are removed, the Prana is released. Especially in illness, unless we reclaim our trapped Prana, it is difficult to find the strength to pursue practices that can help healing. Visiting a yoga therapist, receiving a practice and all the magic it can work depends on continuous practice and constant motivation. This is where, as a therapist, I have felt the need to focus. In order to achieve deeper healing, we have to identify these energy traps very unique and specific for us.

Here is a simple experiment, I am trying on myself. Perhaps you would like to try it too? Ask yourself:

What has trapped my prana?

Wherever I am now, with my current sate of health and life situation, I want to understand what has trapped my vital energy.

1. The first step is to identify it by deepening self-awareness

Patanjali offers a very straightforward direction[1]. Any strong emotional pain, negative/depressive thoughts, physical discomfort and disturbed breathing. With awareness (that of course comes with regular practice of asana, pranayama & meditation), we will be able to identify situations when the Prana is trapped. Strong body sensations indicate the blocks – could be pain, burning sensations, discomfort, stiffness, weakness, heaviness etc. Breath being the primary expression of Prana, it is invariably disturbed on these occasions.

2. When we notice such a disturbance, the next step is to locate the deeper cause. I have listed below some broad areas of energy traps/drains.
  • Illness (of self or loved ones)
  • Relationship issues
  • Anxieties about future (health, finances, children, work etc.)
  • Painful memories
  • Well-rehearsed thought/emotional patterns: 
    “I am….,” 
    “I feel….” (What are your specific drama lines?)
This is not an exhaustive list, just broad indicators. You may find more to add from your life.

3. Pertaining to each of the relevant areas, please write down the specific patterns of feeling/thought/behaviour/ belief that you are most familiar with. (Usually these emerge during the conversation we have with the student during the first consultation itself).

4. As you read each statement you have written, you will be able to observe sensations in your body and changes in your breathing. Observe the intensity of the sensation. Now you have located some of these traps.

How to reclaim the Prana?

There are numerous methods. A very simple one to start with, is Asana. Often, a strong body sensation indicates a powerful knot that has the Prana trapped in it. When we direct our mind and breath into that part, and through conscious breathing and intelligent movements, release the blocks, there is tremendous amount of energy release that you can even feel at the physical level!

Patanjali refers to this process for achieving sthiram (stability) and sukham (ease) of body. Through conscious effort, we locate and systematically release the knots in the body that eventually fall away as resistance gives way.

Prayatna Saithilya Ananta Samapattibhyam YS 2.47

So you see, there is more to asana than meets the eye. 
Krishnamacharya defines yoga as, “Asastra Sastra Cikitsa” – or surgery without instruments. The skill of a good yoga therapist lies in what tools he/she uses and how. Intelligent application is the key. Not a blind shot, but a well-conceived, targeted, intelligent and purposeful solution.


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[1] YS 1.31: Duhkha Daurmanasya Angamejayatva Svasaprasvasah Viksepa Sahabhuvah - The symptoms that accompany a disturbed mind.

Sunday, 1 January 2012

Ahimsa & Satyam


Yogavahini's 1st newsletter - January 2012
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Dedicated to all my dear Yogis,  in whose heart, the seed of truth and kindness is active and sprouting…

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In this issue - AHIMSA & SATYAM
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1. Mujeeb's walk for personal honesty. And how it moved me.
2. A contemplation of Satyam and Ahimsa
3. A practice for inviting Satyam and Ahimsa into your life

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1. MUJEEB'S WALK FOR PERSONAL HONESTY
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2012 is here, and like every year being born, it brings with it fresh dreams, hopes, plans, resolutions… but this year seems somehow, more special! 

In India, we seem to be heading towards some kind of a moral crisis; wanting change; wanting to live in a corruption free environment. We hold the politicians and policies responsible for the existing state of affairs, and then, of course, it seems hopeless!

The change, yoga states, begins from within. And whenever we are able to see and acknowledge that, whenever we are ready and willing to take the first steps to bring that change within, we are in a state of “Atha”[1]Here and now, I am ready and willing to become that change.

So, when I heard from my dear friend, Mujeeb Khan, of his initiative along with a small group of young Indians who call themselves “Proud Indians”[2] to walk the path of personal honesty, it stirred something in me at a very deep level. The power of their penance, walking all the way from the southern tip of the peninsular to Delhi, (around 5,500 km), living out of 
Rs.32 per day (approximately 60 cents) pledging personal honesty as a path to creating a corrupt free nation is indeed soul-stirring a huge step to raise the collective consciousness of this nation, and this planet. It has left me with a deep longing, to stop, pause and take a deeper look into myself, as a practitioner, as a teacher of yoga.


[1] Yoga Sutra 1.1
[2] If you are on Facebook, please follow “Zero Corruption Day” by “Proud Indians”.

2. A CONTEMPLATION OF AHIMSA and SATYAM
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Over the years, my understanding of Ahimsa and Satya has been ever expanding, revealing new dimensions, touching many, and now, almost every aspect of my life. The Buddha and Gandhi have been my greatest inspirations, but they seem so far away! The attempt to weave these values into daily life has been sometimes exhilarating, but most of the time  frightening – when I realize how far I need to go. Setting goals that seem too far away, and feeling despondent and fearful about what I may have to forsake to get there, and when and how can I strengthen my courage and conviction to stay on the path? And of course, longing for a teacher, for a community that can guide me, walk with me…

Now I am aware, with the intensity like never before, of this little seedling of Ahimsa and Satyam in my heart waiting for attention, waiting for nourishment. The pain and anguish is heavy. Like a huge boulder seated on my chest, not allowing the breath to flow through with ease, doubts flitting through my mind like arrows, piercing my resolve, feeling weak all the way down to my legs. 

Strangely, also feeling the shiver of excitement, of entering this inner laboratory to continue the work with greater vigor and enthusiasm, knowing that there is really nowhere to get to. It is just to be here and now, be aware, breathe, and instead of burying this pain, burn and weaken these strands of the web that keeps my little seedling stifled. 

If you are also as excited as I am, to experiment with ahimsa and satyam in daily 
life, here is a simple process to work with. 

I invite you to use this if you find it meaningful.  


3. PRACTICING AHIMSA and SATYAM
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Step 1:
Each of us have some specific patterns of thinking/behavior that come in the way of our practice of ahimsa and satyam. Please identify some of the most common patterns and write them down. The list can be endless, so just write down 5-10, and then underline 1 or 2 that seem most repetitive and bothersome. Put them down as questions, wondering about them rather than as an act of policing. That makes it lighter and exciting to ponder over.

For example, I have identified the following for myself:

Ø       Can I touch somebody’s pain in their anger/accusation against me and resonate with its truth rather than jump to defend myself? In the process of defending myself, I have often failed to see and acknowledge the larger truth, stuck with my point of view at the risk of sinking into more ignorance.

Ø       Am I saying what I am thinking, and am I aware of my intentions behind 
this action? To check for resonance between thought, word and action. An 
honest reflection of the intention behind the action can be a great checkpoint 
too.

Ø       Can I listen without having the compelling need to agree, can I remain 
neutral and not take sides to just “please” the other? This is closely linked to 
the previous statement, the desire to appear good at the cost of being 
dishonest to self.

Once you have identified, you may choose just one or two to practice on, 
everyday for at least 3 weeks, but just take each day as it comes, small, 
baby steps.

Step 2: 
Spend just about 5-10 minutes on self-reflection and setting the intention for the day.

I prefer early morning time for this, when the mind is still quiet from a (hopefully) restful sleep. Ideally, before your daily practice of asana and pranayama (if you are lucky to have that routine).

(a) Take a resolve to be in touch with the seed of non-violence and truth through today – that you will use your conscious breath to guide you to your heart, to remind you of this resolve through every conscious moment of your day.

(b) Read/reflect on these statement(s) you have written for yourself as reminders for the day, and just resolve to be aware of them when these patterns arise during the course of the day.

These statements can bring up initially related memories, and pain along with it. Instead of fighting in the mind, giving excuses/ validations, instead of blaming, complaining or feeling guilty, step down from your head into your heart.

Invariably, you will be able to feel pain/discomfort in some part of the body. For me, it is often the emotional centre, the heart space. Stay with the sensation in the body (wherever it arises) and continue to be guided by the breath that may have to constantly bring you down from the thinking mind to your heart. Like Patanjali says, focusing on your heart, you understand your mind[1]

I have found Vipassana practice immensely helpful – to stay with body sensations and observing them with neutrality. But instead of moving on to other parts, stay with the discomfort long enough to feel the depth of the pain, it may move, the intensity might change, it may pierce and burn… don’t try to run away into the recluse of the mind, be courageous to stay and burn that impression and breathe it out slowly gently…

(c) Sometimes, this process may take longer... you may now continue with your daily 
practice of asana and pranayama focusing on releasing the tension/strong sensation from 
that part of the body through movement coordinated with conscious breathing. Find 
interesting and creative ways by use movement to locate and open up those parts of the body that have stored these impressions. Breathe into those parts, hold the breath there (after inhalation) to intensify the burning and breathe out release and relax focusing on extended exhalation. Having unlocked and released some of these sensations held in the body, you will certainly begin to feel lighter and more energetic. The prana (vital energy) that was trapped so long has now been unleashed and is at your disposal.

End the day, another 5-10 minutes of reflective meditation, you may repeat the process if you like, lie down and exhale letting go…

If this practice is done regularly for a few weeks, it becomes more and more effortless. Then we will be able to locate, burn and release many of these impressions as they are looking for a place to settle within. When the patterns get weaker, it strengthens our awareness, our acceptance of ourselves, our conviction in practice and also releases tremendous amount of energy to pursue our goal.

Be excited about this practice! Use your body sensations and breath to guide you through the day. 

Without trying to be hard or critical, but rather treating yourself as you would treat a little baby taking its first steps, acknowledging, congratulating and patting yourself whenever you “get it”!



[1] Yoga Sutra 3.34

Wishing you peace and love, may you be guided and supported to always live in truth and kindness… so that we can make this world a better place to live in.
Saras
www.yogavahini.com